okay so i'm going to keep this quick because i want to sleep and i have to take a shit and i'm typing on a fucking ridicuolous keyboard right now that i;'m just now starting to get the hang of (so please excuse gratuitous typoes).

HOWEVER, barring all of these reasons NOT to write this, i am feeling very good right now, and it's been a very very long time since i wrote a any real sort of update about my life (if ever). so here:

1) i am in nyc right now, staying with my aunt and uncle on wall street. this is because i'm accepted to NYU, and it's between there and U of Toronto right now for college next year. tomorrow's the reception for accepted kids and then i'm on my plane home by 7 or so.

2) i think i'm finally ready to get artistically active again on multiple fronts. it's going to take a lot of time and patience, but i feel a catharsis coming on. it's this place, i think. ney york city can be a dynamo for creativity or it can really fuck you up. the last 2 times i've been here, i've been pretty inspired, and tonight i arrive home a couple hours ago from an evening of great food and the show "Bridge and Tunnel" by Sarah Jones (didn't get over to the NuYorican this time, mainly because it's easter and nothing's going on there, especially not OPEN MIC, so bouheaueahue next time i guess). i have ideas finally for the artist's book i've been frenetically (not) working on the last few weeks, as well as a canvas piece i plan on sending later to my aunt for her birthday, which was this week, but i forgot because i am lazy and stupid. i have ideas for writings, and i'd still like to continue my latest project if i can fucking scrape together my creative juices. meanwhile, i've got to write 3 or 4 more hip hop songs in less the a month (i think) in order to perform a 25 minute (i think) set some time in May that i get to do (i think) for winning the talent show. finally, i've been listening to radiohead more lately, and playing around with my guitar... still looking for a way to reconcile experimental alt rock with hip hop, but such is life with the societal madman.

3) okay i didn't actually have another thing to say but that last one was pretty long so it probably should have been 2 things. ih ave been reading achewood a lot lately.

4) i am very horny and also falling in and out of love all the time. this has always been the case but more recently i disguised it by ignoring attractions rather than CREEPILY INDULGING THEM (no i am not a raper, more the kind of guy who LOOKS OVER AT YOU TOO MUCH WITHOUT EVER MAKING A MOVE sometimes). on the one hand, i think it would be great to meet a VERYCOOL GIRL right now, but at the same time, not only do i know that the chances of that happening are rea;;y fucking low aroud here (and increase dramatically probably in new york), but also i'd hate to have to go through the whole experience only to break it off in a couple months for college (God forbid i have one of those horrible hangning long distance relationships).
one a side note\\(i didnt mean to put these here but they looked cool so i didn't erase them and instead typed this out) i have no date for my senior ball, but at the same time, i don't really care. this is because i think that RAPPING was the most critical thing i could have done for my high school image, and the only girl i really would want to go with told me she can't ((because her father is a poopface, though i have not told her this in these words).



fuckcckkkcck 1 AM and i still have to fucking shit


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